I have clearly nothing to write in this challenge because I'm not a person that actually read blogs. Hahha. and if i chanced upon them, all I'll do is read the post that interest me and that's that.
I wouldn't really go back and revisit cos I'm not someone that will just go for one blogger or a few.
Yeapp. i think it really depends on the topic the whole post is about.
Well, i mean, no one wants to read a boring blogpost right?
So, if it isn't something of my interest then ofcourse I wouldn't spend much time on it.
Right?
Ending off with an apology. Im sorry for updating so late. I was sick for the last few days and school had been so busy. So, im pushing the next few challenge to probably tmr! when im free ofcourse. Since it's friday!!! I guess I'll be alittle more free? just a little though. hahah
goodnight for now x (;
Friday, 9 January 2015
Sunday, 4 January 2015
why do i blog
There's actually several reasons why i blog.
and I'll be sharing with you three of them.
First and foremost, it started out with me wanting to record down things that happen every single day. I remember that I used to write diaries. pages after pages. but i realised it wasn't safe at all. I mean not safe as in my siblings can view them and they'll tease me about it.
I really hate them teasing me. I'm close with them but not to the extent of sharing secrets, talking about my relationships with people to them.
So, i started blogging as a way of keeping my diary so that i know what happens each and everyday. it's a really great way to record all my life stories and to safekeep memories.
Secondly, it is because i really needed somewhere that i can rant and talk and just be myself. you know, i really havent found someone whom I can trust enough to share about all my things. to rant about everything and wouldn't start asking question or even questioning the way i do things. I wouldn't be judge here i thought.
I think it's really a great way for me to be myself. To rant about what makes me unhappy, what makes me sad or even start having my little dreams here.
I don't expect people to read them by doing this challenge. It gives me a great way to improve my standard of English, which is the third reaason, and allows me to get to know myself better which is the last reason.
Why do i say it allows me to get to know myself better?
Well, the questions asked here makes me understand who i really am. what do i really like, what are my dreams etc
like the first challenge, to introduce myself
it took me a longgggg time indeed because I was thinking about this question. 'Who am I?'
I pondered quite a while before being able to do this challenge which is why it took me longer than usual to do that post.
There's so much benefits in writing a blog so why not do one right? so, i started blogging.
And there's this story of why i really wanted to start a blog.
I'll share it tmr or some other day(;
school is starting tmr and i have to be up by 6am ): so i'm off to bed!
It's 1130pm already. time flies real fast~
i dont even know if i'll be able to wake up on time tmr morning. hahah
time to sleep anw!
Goodnight (:
and I'll be sharing with you three of them.
First and foremost, it started out with me wanting to record down things that happen every single day. I remember that I used to write diaries. pages after pages. but i realised it wasn't safe at all. I mean not safe as in my siblings can view them and they'll tease me about it.
I really hate them teasing me. I'm close with them but not to the extent of sharing secrets, talking about my relationships with people to them.
So, i started blogging as a way of keeping my diary so that i know what happens each and everyday. it's a really great way to record all my life stories and to safekeep memories.
Secondly, it is because i really needed somewhere that i can rant and talk and just be myself. you know, i really havent found someone whom I can trust enough to share about all my things. to rant about everything and wouldn't start asking question or even questioning the way i do things. I wouldn't be judge here i thought.
I think it's really a great way for me to be myself. To rant about what makes me unhappy, what makes me sad or even start having my little dreams here.
I don't expect people to read them by doing this challenge. It gives me a great way to improve my standard of English, which is the third reaason, and allows me to get to know myself better which is the last reason.
Why do i say it allows me to get to know myself better?
Well, the questions asked here makes me understand who i really am. what do i really like, what are my dreams etc
like the first challenge, to introduce myself
it took me a longgggg time indeed because I was thinking about this question. 'Who am I?'
I pondered quite a while before being able to do this challenge which is why it took me longer than usual to do that post.
There's so much benefits in writing a blog so why not do one right? so, i started blogging.
And there's this story of why i really wanted to start a blog.
I'll share it tmr or some other day(;
school is starting tmr and i have to be up by 6am ): so i'm off to bed!
It's 1130pm already. time flies real fast~
i dont even know if i'll be able to wake up on time tmr morning. hahah
time to sleep anw!
Goodnight (:
meaning of my blog name
pistanthrophobia
the fear of trusting someone due to past experiences with relationships gone bad
Yeap, i have pistanthrophobia
the reason why i assign this as my blog name is because
I want to constantly remind myself to not trust people easily
they have to prove and show that they are worth it
that they are worth having my trust and wouldn't break them easily
like how many others often do
I used to trust people very easily.
It was like as long as someone says that they'll keep the promise, I'll let them in on the secret
I learnt this lesson the hard way and i swear i don't ever want to experience it again
It bloody hurts I swear, it cause me to fall right into depression and I wouldn't want to experience that again .
Do you know how lively and cheerful I used to be?
In sec 1 & 2, I remember being the one who always bring alot of snacks to school to share with everyone else.
I remember being the one who helps everyone when they are in need
Always having that bright smile on my face like everything is alright even when they're falling apart
I was many people's listening ears
An advicer who always try to cheer other people up.
Who always laugh even when the joke wasn't that funny
I used to be someone so bright and cheerful
In sec 3, I was the exact opposite.
Plucking in earphones every single time.
Sitting alone in the bus
Being silent every single time
I started hating my class, my classmates and even the people of my age
I couldn't trust people that know me when I was in sec 1 & 2.
Because I thought they knew the whole story and even though I wasn't at fault, I know people wouldn't believe me anyway.
It was 4 against 1 so isn't it obvious?
It was all until I met him that I started opening up, believing everything he says
and trust him in all the promises he made
but when he broke them again and again
i started telling people when they ask me 'promise?'
i would say, 'no. I don't want to make promises that I can't keep but I'll try. I will.'
cos i understand how much it hurts to having empty promises
and when he says he want to do this and that for me and it ends up with nothing?!
It fucking hurts. It felt like i was being betrayed
That's why I stopped trusting
I dont dare to anymore
It's like nobody is worth the trust
nobody is worth allowing me to feel that pain again
no one...
So i'm putting it as my blog name
to always remind myself
what caused me to be in such a state
Being too trusting
believing that everyone is good
i am a pistanthrophobist
the fear of trusting someone due to past experiences with relationships gone bad
Yeap, i have pistanthrophobia
the reason why i assign this as my blog name is because
I want to constantly remind myself to not trust people easily
they have to prove and show that they are worth it
that they are worth having my trust and wouldn't break them easily
like how many others often do
I used to trust people very easily.
It was like as long as someone says that they'll keep the promise, I'll let them in on the secret
I learnt this lesson the hard way and i swear i don't ever want to experience it again
It bloody hurts I swear, it cause me to fall right into depression and I wouldn't want to experience that again .
Do you know how lively and cheerful I used to be?
In sec 1 & 2, I remember being the one who always bring alot of snacks to school to share with everyone else.
I remember being the one who helps everyone when they are in need
Always having that bright smile on my face like everything is alright even when they're falling apart
I was many people's listening ears
An advicer who always try to cheer other people up.
Who always laugh even when the joke wasn't that funny
I used to be someone so bright and cheerful
In sec 3, I was the exact opposite.
Plucking in earphones every single time.
Sitting alone in the bus
Being silent every single time
I started hating my class, my classmates and even the people of my age
I couldn't trust people that know me when I was in sec 1 & 2.
Because I thought they knew the whole story and even though I wasn't at fault, I know people wouldn't believe me anyway.
It was 4 against 1 so isn't it obvious?
It was all until I met him that I started opening up, believing everything he says
and trust him in all the promises he made
but when he broke them again and again
i started telling people when they ask me 'promise?'
i would say, 'no. I don't want to make promises that I can't keep but I'll try. I will.'
cos i understand how much it hurts to having empty promises
and when he says he want to do this and that for me and it ends up with nothing?!
It fucking hurts. It felt like i was being betrayed
That's why I stopped trusting
I dont dare to anymore
It's like nobody is worth the trust
nobody is worth allowing me to feel that pain again
no one...
So i'm putting it as my blog name
to always remind myself
what caused me to be in such a state
Being too trusting
believing that everyone is good
i am a pistanthrophobist
Saturday, 3 January 2015
intro & recent pic
My name is Valerie, a 17 yo ordinary girl.
Im studying in srjc and will be taking my A levels in a few months.
I have a lot of stories to share but I only want to share them to those that wants to know
not because of curiousity
but because they truly care
Ever since the age of 10, I have been living with my dad and siblings.
At the age of 11, my sister got ill. very ill. She was hospitalised for 3years.
At the age of 14, i got backstabbed and betrayed by my best friends.
At the age of 16, my mother remarried and had a baby.
He is so precious i swear.
Even though I took months to accept his existence, it was one look that made me confirmed that I did the right choice.
At the age of 15, i met a boy. someone that i thought loves me but turns out, he doesnt.
He's too popular to do so but it's alright.
I still love him but i dont need him in my life anymore.
This story may not sound like you should care but i just want to share them because I'm finding a new start, a new beginning.
I have pistanthrophobia, I fear trusting people.
because they always break their promises, till i find no hope in trusting their words again.
I have no goal in life. i cant find them yet, im on my way there...
Hoping that I'll find them soon enough, to find myself.
and not feel as lost.
I guess i should stop here?
it will be slowly revealed through the many challenges that I'll be doing from now onwards.
I'm so sorry this came up so late ):
here's the recent picture to end off this post!
Friday, 2 January 2015
blog challenges
hey guys
im gonna start off this blog with blog challenges that I'll complete and ofcourse about my daily life
Rants will be posted because i really do need somewhere that i can rant on
so here is the blog challenge that i'll be doing for the next 31 days
starting from today which is the 2nd and I'll do it later cos it's nearing 1am and im really tired.
got this off google. here it goes!
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im gonna start off this blog with blog challenges that I'll complete and ofcourse about my daily life
Rants will be posted because i really do need somewhere that i can rant on
so here is the blog challenge that i'll be doing for the next 31 days
starting from today which is the 2nd and I'll do it later cos it's nearing 1am and im really tired.
got this off google. here it goes!
So from now on, I'll try to blog daily, completing this challenge and update on my life. but well, im gonna be rather busy since im having A's this year and i have nationals as well ):
I'll do my best alright? goodnight for now x
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